I fell again.

I did it again. I sometimes fall down. It's almost when I'm so tired or I need something bad to do because I've done hard and right.
I tend to break it.
I should overcome it but it's not easy thing.
I may not give up to restart my right things but I don't like, no, I dislike and hate doing that terribly.
I rather want to let it open to someone and, fall in the unreturnable valleyfloor.
I wish I could have someone who I can share it together but it cannot be any wrong.
Would the time come?